In Repair...

I find myself on the bottom of an empty glass, need a refill. Let my emotions come running down and hit me hard to the point that reality does not exist. Let me sleep good for once, let my dreams take me far away from reality. I can't bare this reality knowing inside it is not over. This heaviness in my heart I can no longer take. The more I do the less I know, keeping me away of what is holding me back to scream out loud "I need you!” Yes, it burns when I cry when I scream out your name.

Finally!

Plenty of Black

You know I love shopping, and friends of mine know that I have plenty of clothes and shoes to wear. But today I can not find anything at all especially the color black. I know I bought plenty of blacks,  skirts, tops, pants, and dresses. My bed right now is pile of clothes, and I can't choose the one to take and pack.The one color that is black, and you can mix it with anything but today is hard to choose. WTF!

Father Passed away

Well not sure how this thing works, but any how just found out today that my father passed away. How am I doing? I say good, others say I am being stupid. I guess because I haven't shown any signs of emotional feelings or felt like crying, while I was at work. They asked for me to go home, but I wanted to stay and take care of customers. The only thing that was on my mind was that I had errands to run, cleaning house, sorting out laundry, my rent is due, and assignments to be finish for class. I was more concern about those things than worrying about my father passing away. I guess what I'm saying is people cope differently, I think?